I have been ‘modeling’ for a little under 2 years. Sometimes I don’t even know why I am still doing this. I mean, a majority of the time I am completely dissatisfied with the results. This has nothing to do with the photo quality, and everything to do with the fact that I overly analyze & criticize just about EVERYTHING that I do {Plus a lot of the time I hate my face. lol}.

I had my first photoshoot in late 2006. I don’t even remember how, but I had stumbled across MM {modelmayhem.com} and decided to make an account to set up some tfcd shoots with local photographers. It was free & I can’t turn down free stuff. MM is a decent community, but it’s kind of like the ‘Myspace’ of the modeling world. LOL.

I’ve said this before, but in case you missed it the first time; modeling is pretty much just a hobby for me. Something fun to do that allows me to get a few good photos of myself along the way. There is so much more that I would LOVE to do with modeling, but lack of budget, the area that I live in & lack of skill are making it difficult at the moment. I swear I’m a creative girl. lol

To state the obvious: I am not your ‘average’ model, but I am your ‘average’ girl next door. I’m only 5’3” – so I’m much too short for industry standards. I weigh in at 120 lbs. – and although I’m not fat by any means, I’m definitely not the desired trim/skinny gal. Life has been hard on my body & my mind, but I think I’ve held up pretty well. ;)

I have a very realistic outlook on what I do. I don’t expect anything to ever really come out of my ‘modeling’. I’m a mother & wife first, so that is where my priorities lie. Also, in the region where I live, there is not really much for a model to do. I’m not trying to be famous & I’m not doing this for friends. If I make a few along the way, that’s just an added bonus for me! For those reasons, I don’t have any set modeling goals. Sure, there are a few things that I would be thrilled to have happen though. I’d LOVE to be a print model – magazines, advertisements, whatever. Also, being a modified model, I would of course like to get more publications in the tattoo industry magazines. Thus far I have 2 tearsheets from tattoo magazines, neither of which I am very happy with.

Well, I’ve talked about print work, so now let’s talk runway. I honestly don’t think I am cut out for runway. Aside from my obvious lack in height {which I know doesn’t always matter}, I have done 2 lingerie shows and did pretty horrible in both of them. I have MAJOR anxiety issues & I think that is my biggest problem. This isn’t to say that I wouldn’t like to do runway, only that I don’t know if I could.

Well – I guess that’s about it for Pt. 1

Your comments, questions & suggestions are welcome.

xoxo